Childhood....

After long when all of a sudden you sit and ponder over your past, what feelings does it evoke? Especially your childhood is what I mean here.... Special? Wierd? Beautiful? Painful? ..... I guess everyone has different ways to look at it.... Anyways this is just to share what I felt when i happened to go through my childhood VCD/photographs....

I had taken a leave from office for 5 days.... enjoyed myself... ofcourse anyone will when you break away from your routine schedule... its fun isnt it? Ok sorry to come back to what I was saying... One of these days just sitting idle I thought of viewing a VCD of 1991. It was a CD of a family function. It was in a video tape format which i got converted into a VCD because thats really a memory that I cherish. When I was watching that VCD I was laughing and just laughing like a mad female. Why? because I was seeing myself dancing away to glory not caring abt the world. I was looking so innocent and cute with one small fountain pony. It was such an amazing feeling to see yourself when you were small. And my lil sis was trying to come behind and dance but I was just jumping dancing that she even fell and I dint realize. There was one of my cousin dancing along with me. I did not know jack shit abt dancing still I managed to do a few steps repeatedly. Rest all I copied from my cousin.

My mom was distributing chocolates and everytime I used to come from below her hand a grab chocolates and run away. Those are small things that you did but yet so beautiful.

Then i thought why not have a look at bachpan ka photos. I had a full suitcase full of my childhood photograph albums. I just requested mom to get it removed for me as I was just too excited to see them. When I got those albums in my hand I was jumping like a little kid who gets excited to see something that he wished to. I started looking at those photos with all wierd and beautiful dresses that you were made to wear when you were small. How parents are na? Too excited to dress their kids in all possible ways and click their photo. I have memories of all my birthdays, every occassion. That lil innocent smile. Its all vanished now. When I was seeing those photos with my sis, I was shouting like, "Nehu see me in this saree... Oh my God look at me in that dhoti kurta.... or that kashmiri dress...... ".... "See see see me all happy to see cake and waiting to cut it, so excited to receive gift...." all those moments captured mean a lot when you think of it.

Believe me friends it feels nice to ponder over such things and your innocent childhood....

Friends i am sure you all have your set of memories. Do reflect back on it.. It will give you immense happiness.

God bless you :)

My first trip to God's Own Country... Kerala

Hey Friends.... my first trip to Kerala was so amazing that I cannot describe it in words.... that place is like heaven... Though i went only for 2 full days, I experienced something that gave peace to my heart to a very great extent....

I along with my friends went to trisshur for a very close friend's wedding... Someone who is a lil saint.. Because of her wedding I got a chance to visit Kerala... We reached there on 25th May night... When we got out of the airport the site was splendid... WHy? Ill tell you... when u get out of Mumbai airport we see only buildings, smoke and wat not except greenery.... But when we got out of Kerala airport, I could only see greenery... it was picture perfect... something unusual u see....

We head off to our friends home.... sleeping throughout ou 45 minutes drive from Cochin to Trisshur.

We reach her place and get amazed by her palace... Palace for the princess to get married.... Yes it was a palace bcoz it was so elegant and beautifully designed. Everything in that bungalow was thought about....

Forget about all that.... We were too tired so after chatting for while we all went to sleep as we had to get up early in the morning to head off for Munnar.... 4 hour drive from Trisshur (where we were staying). Munnar is full of tea plantations, is surrounded by vast jungles and has such cool climate... ur skin breathes. No polution nothing.... u feel so fresh and amazing.... The weather, forests, scenary.... everything about that place was admirable.....

Munnar Tea Gardens.........

We leave from Munnar to reach home as there is a function at home for close relatives just beofre the marriage..... We get stuck on a bridge because of traffic.... And our friend warned us to reach before 7 pm. as the function is to begin at 7.30 pm. But we reach at around 7.35 pm. Princu is a bit upset but we get ready fattafat and go for the function.... Unfortunately we do not see the ceremony, feel too guilty that for what we went there we missed d ceremony but we were looking forward for the D day - our cutest frd's wedding....

Yes the D day arrives and we all woke up at 6 am and started getting ready... Hello.. we were not stupid. Actually we were 6 of us in 1 room wid 1 bathroom and had to get ready by 10 am.... Now what do u expect... hehehehehe..... Anyways we got ready on time.... Our lil Princu dressed up in lovely saree with a headgear and tiara (i dunno if ive speled it right), was looking too cute.... Wedding in church was something i was too excited abt as ive never seen a wedding in church.... It was too sweet.... God bless the couple....

Post wedding we wanted to go out in the market to buy banana chips and lungi... hehehehe ya u see all men in Kerala - dressed in white lungi.... Anyways we unfortunately did not go out as markets are closed on Sundays.... We went back home... things had changed.. d house was empty post marriage as everyone had gone.... 2 days of fun and happiness suddenly ... wat do i say... ull know wat i mean.....

We come back on Monday... i was hoping my flight gets cancelled and i get one more day to stay back in kerala and go to Back waters.... Actually wanted to avoid Office and the routine work....

Lets see when do i get a chance to go back to Kerala....

God Bless my sweet friend and her hubby :)

2 years of MBA...Wish come true!

Hey friends... in March 2004 when my exams of TYBcom were coming to an end, i dint even know that i would come so far.... Yes! i did not even expect that i would be allowed to work... Being from a Marwari family where ur parents are so conservative about you going out, coming home late... blah blah blah... usual cribbing u see...

My parents wanted to get me married... but i dint want to.. wanted to do something... Something?? What?? I did not know but atleast not get married... Wanted to become independent... Found out about IATA, thought of doing C.A. but no.... thought of giving MBA a shot... if got through then cool or else will go where destiny taks me... The same reason I gave to my my parents... Lets give MBA a shot if i got thru a good college then y not... they agreed...

Finally after lot of convincing, i got into IES Mgt College --- the 2 years i spent here were the best years of my life.. not exaggerating but its true... I truly enjoyed and did everything i always wanted to... Made genuine friends.. learnt how to tackle difficult people... Danced in Pratyush (our inter-collegiate event)... went to Goa for the first time....yes parents allowed me to go with my friends (i was all prepared to hear a no fom them but no they said yes)... we designed a music store as a part of 1 of our projetcs... those memories will last for ever....the group studies, samosa pav at Prasad... masti in computer lab ...etc etc... cant forget all that...

My sweet friends need mentioned here... Sabu, Renuku, Princu, Shreyu, Sheebu, Nidhish, Minocher, Godwin, Tarun, Bharat, Abbu, Rahul bros, Vivek, Ajay, Neelesh.... the list goes on... they all taught me many lessons... but all in different ways....

I learnt a lot in these 2 years... But as we say good and bad times, all come in packages... these 2 years were coming to an end... I was seeing it ending.... we all got busy with placements... Interviews were scheduled from Jan 2006...

I had my first interview on 10th Jan 2006.... Was completely prepared to ruin it.... believe me... I had never faced an interview before.. was all set in my mind that, "first interview is meant to learn, to screw it up" .. so y care... The interviewers came.. we had 2 rounds of GD.. i got thru to the the final 5 for interview.... Was a bit nervous as I have a habit of laughing and giggling a lot.. even at the interview I wouldnt have been able to stop it i knew... Anyways... my time to go inside for the interview.... I entered with confidence and couldnt believe that I was able to control my laughter.... My interview went in for 15 mins... I really wanted to get out of there.... Finally it got over....

Somehow after the interview i had a feeling tht I might get selected.... Yeah i got selected.. after 2 days I got a call that I have been selected... I did not know how to react, whether to take it up or not... bcoz as per the college rules once you get selected by 1 company you r not allowed to sit for other interviews... however, i took it up because the profile was something which every marketing student could dream of getting.... signed my offer letter and sent it back...

I was now relaxed that I have a job and after my MBA i dont have to look out for one... I was sson going to be a part of the corporate world... it looked a bit scary to me.. i was afraid of politics at office but had no choice but to wait and watch out for wat was coming my way.... But at the same time was fearing about things changing once we all start working.... and thats happening to us.... Lets not discuss sad things.... Im happy that i met real nice friends at IES and wanna cherish those sweet memories...

God bless all my friends!!

Lost Somewhere

We live, atleast i do believe, in a place where everyone is running behind something they themselves dont know. We go to work in the morning, are back late at night. No time for family friends or even your life partner.

We put ourselves in such a mess that finding a way out from there is difficult. Sometimes we dont want to come out of it. Busy, fast, tiring days...... they just keep passing by. We move with it. We dont even bother to call up a friend and say, "hey i care for you, you mean someone special to me." When was the last time you spent quality time with your friends. Atleast i did not in the last few months of my work. Wont lie... i did not even try.

My family..... yes even with my family.. no time? I have time, but.... Why? I ask myself. I ask myself where is the old "me" lost. Someone who laughed when she wanted, made everyone around happy. Jumped round the place, full of energy. Full of excitement, confidence. All that is lost somewhere. No one is to be blamed for it. Its me who has given up.

Why does it happen sometimes that inspite of knowing what you want from life, you just go the way time takes you. I strongly believe God has his ways & reasons to take us the right path. HE tests us till the time HE feels we are ready for the big gift. But today I'm upset with God, want to ask Him. Why does He test me so many times. Why is life made difficult at every stage. What does He want? I wish I get an answer soon.

I wish I got my childhood back. Its lost, its gone. i loved this quote always, "Never deprive someone of hope, it may be all they have." - its very true. But yet people deprive others of hope. We all dream, but the dreams are never fulfilled. They are dreams yaar after all.

Hey friends, lets live life to the fullest. Lets make our dreams come true. Lets enjoy....kya pata "Kal ho na ho".. hehehe... :)

God & His Little angels...

We all humans want gifts, surprises.. etc etc from the people we love and wanna be with.... Wat about the gifts sent by God in ways we never even recognized......

God has his own ways of making us happy, filling our lives with friends & also with others whom we need at some point in our lives.... God knows it all... God knows exactly what we want & what we need. HE beautifully gives us what we need and not always what we want bcoz we sometimes "want" wrong things in life... God knows all that.....

God gave all of a family, friends, His little angels who are constantly working to make us happy, to fulfil our dreams.... Everytime we cry we make the steps of God's kingdom wet and little angels slip from there... This is what Cyrus Mercant says very beautifully in his books..... Have u people ever read his books... if not please do read.... He says Great Gift of Life is "to be loved" & Greatest Gift of Life is "to be loved by God".... Isnt it true....

We humans have the habit of asking for more than we need.... For small small things we harass God.... When things go our way we forget to thank HIM but when somethings go wrong we ask, " God Why Me?" Why Not.....

When we are dead and gone and reach God's steps, He will ask us how we lived our lives. Did we crib on small things of life or made the most of it..... If we want God to carry us on His lap, cuddle us and make us feel like his special children we need to make Him happy..... HOW Right? We all know how to... We all have been reading hearing im sure about many ways.....

The best way is to let God lead the path.... Just raise ur hands and tell him that God Im ur child, take me where u want.... Make me lead a life u want me to.... I wanna make u happy..... Give me the people u wnat me to be with...... This way He will never let u down.....

Everyday even a small prayer for the needy, for the health of ur loved ones & the path of righteousness..... God hears everything... Ur softest whisper, ur single drop of tear also.... We all know this.... But the path of righteousness is lost somewhere..... EVIL has taken over the love for God & humans that people had.....

People are getting murdered, raped, robbed, etc...... Why is there so much evil? We humans have forgotten that we were sent down here to spread love and not ruin the meaning of love..... Dont those people have a conscious? God is being hurt in so many ways. Even when we ill treat a small begger or a person who can do no good to us we are hurting God...... then wat abt murders, rapes & robbery...... There is no end to it.... evryday we hear something new relating to all that.... Where has all the love spread by God & His little angels gone.....

We all need to work together to get that Love back.... Spread Love Friends..... Help those who need it.... Follow the path of righteousness.....

"Good deeds done for man in the name of God are never in vain"

2 Cute Little Kids...

Yesterday while returning home my car stopped at the signal.... At my left came and stopped another car.... I started smiling...Why? Because I saw a little baby in that car. All smiling.. Touch wood. Playing with someone could be his mom or any other family member. And I was like awww cho chweet. I was admiring that child and.... all of sudden there was a knock at my window on the right....

When i looked again I saw a very cute and very small kid. But I did not get happy to see him... Instead it made me feel more horrible... Because the sight of seeing one small kid all happy in neat clothes in a big car on my left and at the same time also seeing a poor kid, eyes filled begging to me for 1 Re. was very touching.

I kept looking at that poor little kid. Something about that kid was very beautiful. The way he looked at me with his eyes wanting me to open the window and give him something. He did not go away, even though i wasnt giving him anything. But I couldnt stop myself from opening the window and giving that kid 1 Re. knowing his parents will take it from him. He went to another car. By that time the signal turned green. The car next to me moved. Even i moved on... Had to na...

Tell me friends... In a situation like this when you want to give this small kid money but we dont know with that money would he buy somehing for himself or would his parents take it from him, what do we do. We all think of helping these people. But can we help them by giving only 1 Re. or for that matter even if we give them more money will it help them... I guess no..... Cant we do something for these poor kids who also would be wanting to study, have a good meal and etc etc... Like my dear friend Godwin and Minocher always say what do these rich people do... There is so much poverty in our country... India is the fastest growing developing nation... Fastest growing? Yes... But what about the poor people. Are their lives getting any better... No my dear friends..... People who have lots of money, because of whom this nation is fastest growing, why dont they all do something for these poor people.

People staying in slums are told to leave. Why because something new has to be built there... another office, building etc needs to be built there... They are homeless... They are gauranteed homes but do they get them. We all just speak... No one does anything...

Atleast we can help the poor kids in teachin them something. The other day when once I gave a coing to a poor kid my friend told me teach him to say thank you. I called that kid and said, "Jab aapko koi kuch deta hai toh aapko usko thank you bolna chahiye." He just smiled and went away. That smile on his face was so touching. I thanked my friend. Because he taught me to help these kids in some way... I hope you all will in some way or the other...

"Lets together make this nation a better place to live in"..... Spread love and share whatever you can with people around you. Not just your people but also those who are nothing to you.... You will make them feel special as I call it...

May God Bless all of You :)

Life

What is Life....?? We all i guess never understood it.. We are here for a purpose. But do we all realize it? I guess no... We all are sent down here to make the best out of our lives.. Live it to the fullest and give it our best...

But as i said earlier, hardly anyone does so... We are so caught up in petty things that we forget to give it our best... Now u all must be thinking what am i trying to convey by again and again saying "give it your best".

Living life to your fullest and giving it our best doesnt just mean going and freaking out. It also means do small things for your family and friends. Make them feel special. Do something for them everytime. It will make you happy. Care for them. Give them all the love that you can, even if its not acknowledged. It wont rob us of anything.

Also all those who sometimes dont mean anything to you or are not related to you in anyway give you small small happiness of life. Just a smile to a stranger sometimes makes his or her day. Dont you feel happy that you made someone smile. Atleast to me it does. There is a very famous quote: "Give a smile to a stranger. You never know it could be the only sunshine he sees all day". I believe in this & I'm sure most of you will.

If you see someone riding a bike without a helmet, how many of you have stopped and said, "Pls wear a helmet and ride". I hope someone has done so. In a way this will help them and make them feel that people care for other people. How many of us visit an orphanage or any NGO to help them.... I wont lie, I dont but i really want to.... To help those poor kids who want our love...

Life is about these small things I feel... Life wont give us a second chance. So all of you reading this i request make someone happy everyday.....

Make GOD happy by making his children happy in any way that you can :)